on 18.9.15

As I spoke of in my last post called Creative Thursdays, this is my first week for attempting to be creative on certain days. Of course I can be creative when ever I want to, but this is an experiment to help create habits of creating regardless of how perfect my world is around me.  Normally if I only have 20 minutes to spare, that means no to creativity.  I feel like I need hours, even a whole day.  I am learning to just do it. This piece below that is not done in any way shape or form, is one such example.  I had about 20 minutes before I needed to leave for a football game.  So I just drew my number 2, and then got the first layer of paint on.  I forgot to take a before picture, and this is not the finished project, just the beginning.  I love the number 2, and 2 2's are even better! At our last house I had painted a huge 2 on a wall that met our vaulted ceiling.  Here at this place, I have tried not to paint on the walls, as I will have to paint it back when we leave. I am losing that battle.  I have some antique 2's, but was really feeling the need for more, so I decided to do one in a size that might fit in with some photographs.  

For my photography this week, I worked on my polaroids.  I thought I might do a series called a girl and her hat.  I have this straw hat, and it is quickly becoming my favorite.  Ok, well it is also my only straw hat because it would seem I have a very large head by industry standards, and hats that fit are hard to come by.  The other 3 are some flower photos that I actually purchased this round film specifically for, and I am really glad I did.  I love it!  

These photos of my projects are just two photos I snapped quickly with my iPod, not intending to use them for this purpose.  But as I was sitting here, I knew that if I didn't write this post now, I wouldn't end up doing it at all.  So I decided for the sake of accomplishment, I would post regardless.  If I am successful in the two art days, maybe I will add a blog day.  Maybe then I would post more that once every couple of months.  A girl can dream......

creative thursdays

on 16.9.15

I am currently reading a book called Creative Thursdays.  It is a quick read that talks about the creative process and that which can hold us back. It really has been a freeing book for me to read.  I love creating, designing, making, but I just don't make enough time for it.  I get everything ready for a project and then I procrastinate ever starting it.  I have to clean my house first or do some other chore first, or check my fb, or catch up on emails, get the picture.  I have never understood why I am this way considering how excited I am to do the project to begin with.  I just figured it was a me thing, but according to this book it is actually a very common trait with us creatives. What, there are others like me out there?  Honestly, that felt very freeing to know.  One of the things that she suggests in the book is making art a habit.  She suggests picking one day a week, a month, or whatever works and just creating something.  It doesn't have to be a "project", in fact it is better, if you have issues with starting and or finishing to pick something that can be done in one setting.  Just create, just paint, just draw, just do and then share as a form of accountability. Start with small little canvases, and paint anything that comes to mind.  These are not master pieces, they may not even be your style, or taste, this is just about forming a habit of creating. So I have decided to make Monday's and Wednesday's my creative days.  Monday will be my photography day as I am still trying to get my mojo back, and Wednesday will be my art day.  I am really good at starting things but not necessarily sticking to them.  I always try to do everything, get overwhelmed and over scheduled and in the end I finish nothing.  So just a warning this could end this way as well.  I beat myself up about this always, but I am learning more and more to just say it is what it is.  I can't be afraid to stop doing something that isn't working for me because I will see it as a failure. This is an experiment, I will see how it goes. 

book review

on 15.9.15

Well I have not done much on my blog this whole summer except update my summer manifesto occasionally. Trying to get back into a groove, so I thought I would review a book I just finished.  It is called Seven by Jen Hatmaker, and I really enjoyed it.  I love her sense of humor, it reminded a lot of my own, and of my best friend.  Actually I thought if you combined myself and Tanya, you would get Jen Hatmaker. And it must be mentioned, Jen claims to have a big head, like literally.  I confess, I do too.  Of course I wouldn't know this if it weren't for the hat making industry who makes hats that say one size fits all, and I can't even get it around the very top portion of my head. Even when hats say M/L rarely do they fit my head.  It makes for lots of laughing when hat shopping with Tanya, by that I mean she really splits a gut at how ridiculous I look.  She can put on any hat, and it looks fabulous, me, nada. First world problem, right......  So when I read that about Jen, I immediately bonded, us big headed ladies have to stick together! I loved the premise of the book, and closed the last page not only inspired, but also feeling consoled.  I have survivors guilt, why not me guilt, guilt period, some of which is good common sense, but not all.  She gave me a little perspective for seeing it biblically. Jen says : Hear this: I don't think God wants you at war with yourself.  He sent the Prince of peace to soothe those tumultuous waters already.  Self-deprecation is a cruel response to Jesus.  Guilt is not Jesus' medium.  He is battling for global redemption right now; His objective hardly includes huddling in the corner with us, rehashing our shame again.  He finished that discussion on the cross.  Plus, there's no time for that.  Did you hear that, Jesus is not in the medium of guilt.  That is the truth.  I should make a sign to hang in my house that says that.  

I loved hearing about their church and their world view concerning it.  That is so where I am, but not necessarily my church.  I am trying to figure out what I need to do about it, what God would have me do. More guilt. Right now there are Christian refugees that are fighting for their life, and I am glittering stuff for an upcoming wedding, trying to carve out time for art, and happy to get to enjoy more warm weather before the cool weather moves in. It rolls through my head constantly, especially any time I am enjoying myself or feel excited about something. I have heard stories of retired military people going over there to fight along side others, and well as help the refugees,  praise God. 

It was entertaining to read Jen's experience going through the different months.  I related to several of those occasions as well.  The one thing I wasn't in agreement about was her view of environmentalism, had to part ways a little bit there. I plan to explore her resources for companies with a conscience.  I recently found out about the documentary on Netflix called The True Cost that is about the unconscionable things that are happening all for fashion. 

In month seven that covered fasting from stress.  I loved the idea of honoring the hours through prayer pauses, seven to be exact, every day.  This is a practice that goes way back.  I love how it makes stop, and be mindful .   I usually pray through out my day, but I like the fact that there are specific times, with specific purposes based on the hour.  I am going to work on incorporating that to some extent.

So if any of this appeals to you, or you want to join the mutiny against excess, then this book may be for you. It will open your eyes, and support you through the journey. I don't think you will be disappointed.  Here is a link the Jen Hatmaker's website.

I will leave you with a photo of myself taken by Tanya who could barely contain herself long enough to take this picture.  This is a beanie, it's supposed to have stretch, and yet it was so tight around my head that is was distorting my eyes and forehead which is not evident in the photo, but you can see how tight that thing is. It should have a nice slouchy fit.